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4.14am..hanging on wif e help of coffee.*Grieve wif those who grieve, rejoice wif those wif rejoice*.Im gonna share abt e miracles n wonders God has done for me...Yesterday, as i blogged, i poured out my grievances n pain. Dat was my weakest point of time. I felt like giving up..But after dat, i suddenly felt a gush of blood to my face, i felt so pumped up, so warm..N suddenly, i feel a burden lifted off me, my heart filled wif joy n happiness, i felt it so strong, so real..I've never ever experience dis before! I was so surprised..I dunno wats happening..One moment i was sooo grieved n den e other moment i became so happy. Instantly, i knew dat it is e work of God. Finally, i felt e presence of God, strongest ever. He heard my prayers, he heard my cry for help, he felt my pain n he filled my heart with love, he replenished my empty shell ..This was e 1st time ever dat i feel God so near, so real..I was so amazed by e sudden change in my emotions. I was so filled wif joy dat i cant stop grinning for a long time, i just have to laugh all out..I really really felt myself changing, i became stronger n pumped up! Im really happy..e kind of happiness is so unfamiliar, coz i've nv felt happy like dis be4. Its nt like as if sumone made me happy wif his/hers acts or sumthing, it just came unto me all of a sudden, wifout any reason..How wonderful!?=)..n after dat i studied!!!!!!*Priase e Lord!*..I used only 1 hr to study a whole chap of pmkt!!Usually i needa use e whole day to study 1 chap coz there were too many distractions..But God led me thru, he brought me joy n e strength to study!I feel so loved n blessed..Im glad dat im progressing!!!

Had bible study wif sis jac at 3pm, den Revival meeting at 4.30pm-7pm..This time round, i tried to pray during bible study..though i stumbled upon many words n im not eloquent, im glad dat i spoke out in boldness, in faith.For e 1st 2 lessons, i dun really dare to pray coz i really dunnno how..mm.shld thx my bro for teaching me a lil too.

-to be continued.....lots more to say..but im feeling terrible nw.caught e bug..Argh!once again, i cant study..i suddenly have a fear growing in me, IEf----> i really dun understand..i've lots to study..but Sat is cuming...ahh...O Lord, guide me again please!!to all those who r mugging n fretting, ENDURE!Guess my hope of sleeping early wont ever be fufilled...i suddenly feel like giving up...........*slap myself*