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slept at 5am n woke up at 7am.exam at 9am.i didn't manage to really study e notes..just browse thru...went to school wif a mind so unclear, eyes so dazed, mood so fiery, heart so panicky, n stomach practically so empty. To me, the PMKT was so tough..All e qns killed lotsa braincells.I cant recall wat i've studied no matter how hard i try..i guess, i've flunked PMKT dis time round..i really really dunno how to do. Can only blame myself 4 not studying hard enough.Just hope dat i can pass overall..*pray hard*..n now im so tired..i feel like a zombie n i look like 1 too..nt going service 2day...sad!im really really really very tired. terrible headache is killing me.n my eyes are so dead.i need SLEEP!!!!!!!!!But im too stressed up now, cant sleep at all. I've zero appetite. Pressure's piling up. The paper for e easiest module(to me) is oredi a goner for me, wat about e rest??I dun dare to tink of it. I dun wanna study anymore.....(*leave it all to u, my Lord*)..

Yesterday nite, dad did sum lil things which kinda melted my frozen heart a lil. I asked him whether is dere any food..n he offered to cook noodles for me..My hair kept falling down while i was eating n he helped me brushed them away n even said jokingly: "Gonna find a rope to tie ur hair" n he went to find sum rubber band..I almost cried while eating. Coz, actually i was very rude to him be4 this. My mood was so bad, n i was trying to concentrate on my notes when he nagged at me non-stop..Outta frustrations i shouted at him..It was his usual naggings but i couldn't stop myself from flaring up..haiss..I felt so bad n sorry. He still cares for me though my attitude was so bad..Normally, he wun do sweet stuff like dis..But i guess, he knew how stressed up i was, how little sleep i had for days, how unhappy i was. God sent him to give me sum strength..Yup, after dat i really feel lots better..I noe my parents still love me no matter how i angered them, how we quarelled etc..

*Newly uploaded song- Pretty Boy: M2M* i lov it..

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((Thx Dequan for lending me e "Hope" Cd..))(( i do nid sum hope))