sorrows

its a rainy day.since last nite, i felt so vulnerable, so much dat..i just feel like breaking dwn so many times.. e rain adds to my sorrows..rain down on me.....

many a time, i just feel so out of place, so lost, so alone, so unwelcome, so left out, so insignificant....so small, so transparent, so....forsaken..im hanging on, grabbing tightly dat lil bit of hope....im reall afraid dat i will drift slowly away....from............

i dun want to. but i dun wish to walk dis road alone..they say its gonna be exciting, filled wif joy...but how izzit gonna be true when im...non-existent.

y cant i share my problems out verbally..i used to be bold..i can share wif pple anithing under e sun..but now, i can only turn to writing...all things r hidden..no matter how pple ask, my mouth just wun talk, frm e bottom of my heart.my deepest feeling just wun reveal..

O'lord, u heard my prayer?? i noe u understand fully wat im thinking, wat im going thru..Take away all my problems, make me not to be weary,expand my capacity..Thank You Father.

thanks weiling, weixuan....im sorry..i said im orite when im nt...but dat is becoz i noe dat im gonna be orite once i get myself outta dis pithole, once i cast away all negative feelings...i miss u two..

i wonder...y im still smiling..

its jingmin's bday..i really Thank God that i've met her..she's always so caring, always talking to me, sharing wif me abt dis n dat...=))..

((Happi Birthday Jingmin!!May all ur wishes cum true..Stay happy!!Love ya, wif e love of Christ!))

i really dun feel gd..take away e pain God..please..