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im really thrilled dat the 2 weeks of "break" has started!Hooray!I can finally rest a little.mm.this few days brought abt new changes in my thinking n e future i planned. ...many things has happened which totally changed my perception of sum pple n stuff..sorry to anione who's reading this if ya noe wat im toking about. thoughts of giving up this n that has been running thru my mind dis few days. my wish is to detach myself frm all commitments. i noe its selfish to think dis way as it will implicate alot of pple, caused lotsa disappointments. but at dis point of time, i really hope to enjoy a break. i dun wan to always appear so tired @ stuff, deep down i really wanna enjoy wat im doing but i just cant overcome e fatigue in me. if only u noe how burned out i am...mm..i tink its nt appriopriate 4 me to really announced wat im going to do, coz i might jus change my mind @ e very last min/tink i'll just tok about a few which really made me harbour e idea of giving up.
(a).......-> i've seen e ugly side of human nature. political until a certain extent.boo!its jus nt so me. im very disappointed. n really sad abt stuff. but...im inspired to SPUR on even further!!(within us, nt wif other pple, sorry to say).nah, nt interested in being a social butterfly, i jus wanna fulfil my own goals, myself!dis is how disappointed i am.(sorry im beating ard e bush)
(b)......-> feeling dry. always so restless. so wats e point of me continue doing this?? im nt improving any single beat. after Xmas, i gonna rest for a few weeks. im really very very sorry.(my mind is still nt firm yet though)
(c)....-> this really sucked away all my energy n TIME. n im learning nothing new!
hais....im really very very stressed up. when its time to do projects, im e only one who gotta fulfil this commitments n thus cant participate much, im sucha burden to e group!i tried my best to offer to do watever i can, but wifout my presence there during meetins, deres nuthing much i can contribute. theres dis emotional struggle in me. saw qiu's blog..actually i shld be e one apoligizing to u guys..So sorry i always have to work, attend meeting or watsoever whenever we're doing proj...i really dun wish to do all dis de.really hope u guys can understand.
im a student, wat i shld do now is to study!(dis is one thing i can forget abt giving up though i really wanted to.)common tests r cuming, i really hope i'll have e time to study. i've lost touch wif my gals n alot of frens....im too tired n busy to meet up..tink i've oredi became a very small figure in their lives.im so sorry...
but guess, i will be able to compensate those which i've lost soon..though in one way or another, i might disappoint sum pple..especially those in ......sorry, i really dun have e strength n willpower anymore..i noe im selfish to do dis..sorry.i just wanna take a short break.i dun understand y my parents r piling so much stress on me still. i cld hardly breathe.
((guitar lesson tml wif bros n sis tml n makan session wif my gals whom i've nv met for a long time!hope all my stress will be relieve=)))
((n hope Ernest will like e card.haa..super nice 1.(oki im bhb))
((n i just realised i stilll haven blog abt Amazing race thingy...dot..soon kie))
(a).......-> i've seen e ugly side of human nature. political until a certain extent.boo!its jus nt so me. im very disappointed. n really sad abt stuff. but...im inspired to SPUR on even further!!(within us, nt wif other pple, sorry to say).nah, nt interested in being a social butterfly, i jus wanna fulfil my own goals, myself!dis is how disappointed i am.(sorry im beating ard e bush)
(b)......-> feeling dry. always so restless. so wats e point of me continue doing this?? im nt improving any single beat. after Xmas, i gonna rest for a few weeks. im really very very sorry.(my mind is still nt firm yet though)
(c)....-> this really sucked away all my energy n TIME. n im learning nothing new!
hais....im really very very stressed up. when its time to do projects, im e only one who gotta fulfil this commitments n thus cant participate much, im sucha burden to e group!i tried my best to offer to do watever i can, but wifout my presence there during meetins, deres nuthing much i can contribute. theres dis emotional struggle in me. saw qiu's blog..actually i shld be e one apoligizing to u guys..So sorry i always have to work, attend meeting or watsoever whenever we're doing proj...i really dun wish to do all dis de.really hope u guys can understand.
im a student, wat i shld do now is to study!(dis is one thing i can forget abt giving up though i really wanted to.)common tests r cuming, i really hope i'll have e time to study. i've lost touch wif my gals n alot of frens....im too tired n busy to meet up..tink i've oredi became a very small figure in their lives.im so sorry...
but guess, i will be able to compensate those which i've lost soon..though in one way or another, i might disappoint sum pple..especially those in ......sorry, i really dun have e strength n willpower anymore..i noe im selfish to do dis..sorry.i just wanna take a short break.i dun understand y my parents r piling so much stress on me still. i cld hardly breathe.
((guitar lesson tml wif bros n sis tml n makan session wif my gals whom i've nv met for a long time!hope all my stress will be relieve=)))
((n hope Ernest will like e card.haa..super nice 1.(oki im bhb))
((n i just realised i stilll haven blog abt Amazing race thingy...dot..soon kie))
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