emo session

its 2.26am..dun wish to sleep..n dun wish to go to school..becoming emo all of a sudden. im overtired...haven't had a break since bAoc, went for make up cgm early morning on sat, follow up by service..den worked frm 1pm-11pm on Sunday, started sch on mon den has POS training in sch frm 5-10pm, lecture on tues follow up by prayer meeting frm 7.30-9.30am..letures today n tml n working on both days after sch too..lecture on fri n bday celebration wif sis jac after dat..n the list go on...hmm...ya im seriously tired...but i prefer having things to do then nothing..now that bAoc is over, i've more time to "think too much"...i can be such a sensitive person at times.ok i've decided nt to go to sch le..i can predict swollen eyes.


------------follow-ups of bAoc, words to the people:------------------

To Jerome:
My dear SCO partner..We've worked tgt for 1 year but knew each other for 2 yrs. bAoc really brought us closer. We didn't really tok when we were dancers for *Starwars* 2 years ago n oso *US* 1 year ago. Its amazing how we can get tgt n click so well..Ur such a chiongster n one walking encyclopedia..U really know alot of things man..frm food to countries all ard the whole..Weet..Learnt alot alot of new stuff frm u..N u have a super gd temper. Super cute la, esp when u get stressed up..very funny..haha..coz u get stressed up over the smallest matter. Wat a innocent kid. =p.Thanks for doing all the sai-kang man.Our sai-kang king!!*DA TOU rox!* yup..N cant deny, ur a sensitive guy..Thats a virtue which not much guys have man..Gd Gd..at least u're sensitive to girl's feelings.When i get emo, u'll try to cheer me up. Thanks dude! Thanks for all the encouraging and stuff..Though we've only sloughed 1 month+ tgt for bAoc, our frenship can be on par wif a ten years one...yup!I really hope dat we can meet up regularly..FM really changed my view of poly life.It brightened up my dark days...seriously..i didn't noe poly life can be so fun..but it won't be fun wifout u guys!!Must miss me eh...i noe u will surely miss me one la...right...!hehee..N Jerome, u snores leh!!Hmm..bAoc has officially ended....but we'll be frens till the end ya...more outings n stuff...lets go concourse, arcade, army market etc etc..U, bren n me...Hooray!!

To Brendan:
My dear ASCO n bro-in-christ..Knew u since last year's bAoc..frm the hip hop guy to bro-in-christ to ASCO..Hav alot to say to u eh. Thanks for being my dancer, thanks for bringing me to church, thanks for sloughing for bAoc..etc..Been in church for quite long le, but its bAoc which brought us closer..Now then i really noe more about u..You can be so super duper funny n lame man..Super cold...And ur eye power is superb one...But u really brightened up my days!But when ur tired or hungry, its so scary.Emo ar u!!hhaa..N i think there's really sumthing wrong wif ur tear glands..=p..jkjk..Never c u cry be4..One day i shall bully u until u cry..=)..We've spent so much time tgt for the past 1month+..Seeing each other almost everyday..Weekdays in school, weekends in church n cell group..Hais..had to see *Mee Pok* everyday..so sickening..haha..But i dun think i will get used to nt seeing u n jero when sch reopens..Ok la, maybe its a blessing to u guys not to c me la..Think u all will only miss bullying me...so sad lor..=(...Well seriously, i really hope dat our bond will still be the same now n forever..Im just afraid that it wld be different in church as we wun have alot of things to tok abt le...Then it'll go back to the days before bAoc again..hmm.Dun ps me wor.OH..thanks for designing the pretty flags ar..hhaa..Credits go to u k..A future designer.Ur calling eh..n Thx 4 doing all the sai-kang too.Ur the best ASCO!!Haa.nv regretted choosing u man..yup..the 3 of us can really click well. Really thank God for that!!Our journey will continue...Amen=)

To Lawsonn, Vanessa, Steph, Shiyin, Yixiu, Phylis:
You guys are the few whom really sloughed ur hearts out wif us...Thanks for spending so much time n money on the preparation...all the drawings, paintings, trips to buy materials, learning n teaching dance etc etc..U guys r the pillars of FM!!!Wifout the few of you, we wun be able to manage the big group of FM!Thanks for being so co-operative....so enthusiastic abt everything...so fun...and so serious when doing work..Ur efforts are paid off yeaa!!!Hope u guys really had fun...We spent so much time tgt, n i really hope our bond will keep going on n on...More outings okiess.!!!I really miss u guys alot..Until i cry man..U noe la, Ruby...is oso a cry baby...hee..Really really love this bunch of pple..!Must miss me okiesss....Rmb the emo session we have on the last day in our bunk...I cant really rmb wat i say, coz im nt gd wif words man..But wat i've wrote here are all my heart-felt words..words dat i really wanted to tell u guys..Hope u all will be able to c it..I really appreciate all ur help deep down frm my heart!!!Am so blessed to have u guys in FM!!!Rmb we are not only og pals, but FRIENDS!!!Long term one yea!!LAstly...FM OEI!!!!!U guys rockssss =)

To all the SBS, SCS:
THANKS A MILLION for all the help n sai-kang u've done for FM!!!Especially for the hectic 3 days....running ard wif freshies...etc...FM will nt be a whole wifout u guys..U guys really did a great job leading n bonding wif the freshies..Rmb this is one of our goal??U guys achieved it!!*We are proud of u say we r proud of u* We'll have outings n outings n outings k..Rmb to have outings wif ur freshies too yea..Really hope that bAoc will be a memorable event that happened in ur poly life.Dun ever forget ur SCOS ar!!Hee..We've won the war, thanks to all the efforts u guys have put in!!!Loveeees a million!!!FM will be bonded till the end of time =DD...Really hope to cya guys ard campus...N maybe nx year u guys can work tgt as SCs again..hehe..Thanks for giving me all the good memories..=).

To all freshies, dancers n pageants:

*FM Farade always fight fight fight
Victory is near
Never never never Die
FM Farade always rock the house
Victory is ours
Ever ever ever Best!!*

Thanks for couquering the victory wif us!!U guys played a very important part..Wifout u, there wun be a FM family!!Hope to c FM people all ard campus!!Thanks for all the enthusiasm n cooperation during the 3days of bAoc!!Dancers n pageants, u guys really really work hard!!FM is really proud of u!!!The performance was SUPERBBBB!!Wonderful!!Claire n Arthur u guys really shine for FM!!Congrats on winning!!!=))FM OEI!We'll be united as one!!Hope to c all of u for future outings...RMB me!!! =)
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Went to Jurong church for prayer meeting ytd nite...Felt so recharged after dat..Thought all my probs were gone, but once i log onto msn i felt so emo la..kinda stressed up..im just afraid n tired of everything...seriously...but i dunno how to share my worries wif pple..does anyone even care??mm...i've no idea...so confused..i wanna pray for a miracle..y do sum pple just wanna giv a glimpse of hope n then just smash it so abruptly wifout any giving any warning...or that glimpse of hope was just unintentionally..i really dunno..Father, if it was meant to be, grant me the wish,save me the pain, if its not, just hit me hard, for just once..refresh my memory..i dun wanna go back to the dark days..am no superwoman..just need sum comfort..answer my prayer dear Lord!!