Aint no Superwoman

Amazing events for the past 3 consecutive days. FESTIVAL OF PRAISE 2006 on Fri & Sat night at SG INDOOR STADIUM- a mega event where many churches come together to praise & worship the Lord! Last year i was there too but has yet to receive Christ. Guest Speaker was Pastor Ed Silvoso from Argentina i think. He is very anoited.Christian City Church band(CCC) and Don Moen led us in Praise & Worship. I love them!Don Moen has a fatherly look, i love his charisma, he look so friendly & Godly.His songs are very very nice, though they are all "oldies". It's pleasing to my ears. Lovely. He has got a super cute guitarist too (: Eye Candy for the sisters. Today, we gathered in INDOOR again early in the morning to celebrate City Harvest Church's 17th Anniversary!!It was an awesome 3hr celebration. 'O'School performed a nice dance & beatboxing, video of CHC since the past, CCC & Don Moen was there too and we even celebrated Pastor Kong's 20th service in CHC! He is really a GREAT Man of God! He look super charming today too but he appeared much skinnier than be4, guess he must have been really tire out by all the travelling worldwide & fasting. We sang bday song, national day song,n a lot of balloons fall down frm the ceiling, had a super duper big CHC bday cake, a tribute and a BIG trophy for Pastor kong (: Sun called from overseas to speak to the full-packed hall of people. It was a really sweet moment between Sun & Pastor Kong when they talk! I feel so blessed by this 3 days of events (: though im physically tired. Had dinner with the CG at Cine Foodcourt after celebration & we roamed around town. Saw SG's youngest drummer- Ethan Chan(7 year old) performing infront of Paragon!Many crowded to watch. I must say i'm really stunned, he is so GOOD!Amazed me!He's so cute (: Good boy!Went to Bugis alone. I don't know what was i doing. Visions were blurred, people just keep zooming by as i stared blindly infront. I was a walking zombie.

Alone, i left.
Aimlessly,
I walk and walk.
Till i could take it no more.
My legs gave way;
My heart sank
& the World came crashing down.
I'm no superwoman i guess.

Somehow things at home, at church, in school, basically all areas in my LIFE are taking a downturn. Things are bad at home. I'm starting to resent my parents. Their words are like needles on my heart. Friends disappointed me with ways i think they themselves don't even realise. I just feel so taken for granted. I'm seriously tired of being the good old Ruby. Seriously. I would only feel worse when any good i did wasn't reciprocated; not even once! I'm tired. Physically. Emotionally. Let me off. My heart has dried up...Let me rest. I just feel like dirt ok.

ABACUS Retest tml 4pm-6pm. If i fail again, i don't know what will i do. Nvm, i'll pray for myself. It's always me, myself n i anyway.

seekingrefuge.
icanttakeitanymore.
whatshouldido?