u can ignore this.

i have alot to talk about initially-- my holiday work.guitar. the wonderful revelation i had 2 weeks ago abt my future online shop. the very day when i was humiliated and hurt so much infront of some pple. e absence on the 1st day of school. the burden which i shared wif a few people- the big stone which i finally put down .

but after seeing something..all i can feel now is pure sadness. i really dun have the energy to do ath. . was supposed to go for the IMF appreciation dinner today but i didnt. suddenly, i just seem to have lost my directions..there are so many things in my mind. my hols had been spent working without any goals actually. even now, i myself am not even sure whereby some pple i regard as my close friends regard me as one too. i gave too much to some pple and received nothing. and i feel bad to those whom care for me but i neglected so much.

sometimes when u wish for just a simple msg or little concern it just wun cum. the hurt & loneliness just keep accumulating....i find it so hard to breathe..so hard to smile anymore..really..when can i experience a teeny weeny bit of happiness?..

im losing my confidence my self esteem my capacity my feelings my desires my hope my everything.

n i guess i will step out of nursery. getting really tired..

so tired. tears just keep flowing..a lil something can spark off all the emotions buried deep down..especially when you noe you're just a tiny nobody in someone's story.