No ups can replace the down

Thinking & thinking & thinking..the rainy days made me think even more, even deeper.

This Christmas will be put to test.
The test of Love.
The answer will be;
Stairway to Heaven or
Gateway to Hell.
Endure?
Forsake?
Choose one.

I'm firm; this time round. If i still do not feel anything; that's it. You see me; or you see me not.

Many a time i just want to scream "i don't feel any joy everyday" no matter how hard i laugh; how hard people make me laugh.

I need some time to get away from the world, from the people, from everything.

End of 2006.