Do your best & God will do the rest.

Boos!!

This is gonna be long.. (:

11 Jan Thursday
Went down to Causeway point to meet a seller. Gees. Walked around; looking for presents for my friends. Asked dad to transfer $30 to me. When i was about to withdraw the $ i checked my a/c balance & was ultra shocked to see a 3 digit amount nearing $500 in my a/c. I dare not touch the $ as i dunno where it came from, my a/c had always been a 1 digit balance. HAHAS. Called my dad & told him something crazy happened to my a/c, came up with various possibilities... for example; a philantropist decided to bless me, people transferred $ to the wrong a/c, the bank screwed up, dad decided to bless me secretly..bla bla bla..Well i think too much coz i came to realise that amount was the pay for helping out with IMF. WOO HOOS. It finally came; after like dunno how many months! I'm super HAPPY as mum let me have all the $ to myself! First time! Thank God for the tremendous blessing (:




Joined the ICs for prayer meeting at Jingmin's house. Evans led. It was a good time of communion with the holy spirit though each of us sang in a different key. HAHAS! Browsed thru collections on N194's pics in jingmin's laptop; heard brendan's new song 1st hand, sang tgt; it is nice & catchy; rock on bro. There was a heavy downpour when we went out for supper. Cabbed home & was super late & tired.




12 Jan Friday
Now that i'm rich..HAHAS, i went on a shopping spree; alone. Went to Fareast but didnt fancy anything. Then to Orchard, went crazy over Forever 21, Mango, Zara bla bla bla. Well, i just wanna be a tai tai for 1 day; just 1 day ok!HEES.




Headed down to Gek Poh's McDonald at Boon Lay to celebrate Ling, Vic & Qihao's 20th Birthday! Alot of my sec sch frens turned up! I'm really super happy to see them again, some which i hasnt even contacted since i graduated from sec. It was a mixed feeling of happiness & unfamiliarity. But it's really good to see them again. The guys are as crappy & noisy as before (: There were ling, vic, liyun, yinlei, stella, wanqing, william, qihao, brandon, alan, kahong, shixiang, clifford and me! A surprisingly big group! (:


Welcome to McDonald's =D



Birthday girls: Weiling & Victorina =D my LOVES!


They were busy talking. la la la.


The guys =D


The girls =D


Us & the birthday cake =D






It was a rather special & memorable McDonald celebration as we had to wear the McDonald's cap, paste name sticker on ourselves, play some kiddy games, win kiddy toys etc!HAHAS. I feel like a kid!! But the games were fun, the people there were super friendly & really treated us like children. HAHAs. We filled the entire Mac with loud voices & laughters (: The guys are just sooo funny! We had so much fun! =D


The birthday Trio had to do pole dance to fight for a hamper. 1st up: Qi hao. FUNNY can!


Then the girls. HAAHHAS.


The funniest is Alan cai! hahas. Forced him out to dance. DAMN HILARIOUS!!!!


Even the staff & the people in Mac are laughing so hard! HAHAA! Alan ar alan..still as funny as ever..


See, how daring is he! HAHAS.


We gave him the award..HAHAS..He is acting touched..he is thanking his dad, his mum, his siblings etc..LOL..





We splitted ourselves up & went down to Clementi's Kbox in 2 cars, 1 cab. Man, my long lost sec sch mates had driving license seh! Feels good to be a girl; coz we always have the privilege to be driven by the guys while the guys had to take cab themselves (: Eunice, chunyi & zhanxiang joined us and it was awesome K-ing until 3am (: Totally drained but i enjoyed every moments with them. Hope to meet up often (:



13 Jan Saturday
Went to Changi Airport after service to receive Jacq! She's back from Shanghai! So happy (: Went down to Alif wif the west pple for dinner cum supper after that. I ate like a pig. Super hungry.


14 Jan Sunday
No cell grp today. Supposed to go Chevrons with the sisters but was cancelled in the end as yongling was having "breakthroughs in sneezings". HAHAHS. I couldnt stand the boredom & thus headed down to Cityhall; alone again. Shopped ard Raffles City & Marina. Visited Deb at Skin.. I wonder when can i ever own an item from Skin or Ed Hardy.. Seriously contemplating buying a Ed Hardy top! Hees. I know my limits in spending okies, it's just that this is my 1st time having so much money to myself & i really wanna buy the stuff which i've wanted for a long time! Not to worry, i will set aside $ for Building Fund! God is 1st all the time! Hees. Bought a Zara top.. Pretty! (:

Still didnt wanna go home at 10pm ; thus i went to Bugis. All shops are closed though. Went to the Arcade; tried to catch some soft toys but to no avail.. Hee but it was fun neh.. Went to the toilet & to my surprise i realised a price tag sticking to the back of my top! GRR! I cost only $179 ! AHHH. Sucha embarrassment, i wonder how long has it been there. Singaporeans are just so unfeeling; made me walk around so many hours with a price sticker on my back. I wanna CRY! SOBS! I could even be a joke when im alone.. Man, i really need to pray more. HAHAS.

Met up wif Ling after her work; took the last train to BB. We were super hungry thus we settled down at McDonalds! Yummy. Blessed ling a little (: Chatted for a long time & ling came to my hse to stayover. The weather was super cold! I'm like sleeping on ICE bed; like the "Xiao long nu" in condor heros! LOL. Thus i didnt switch on the aircon & fans, closed the door & all the windows in my room. After lying on the bed for a few mins i started to feel warm & i shot ling a lame question: " Do you think we will die?" & we burst out into laughters! HAHAs. We slept at like 4am if im nt wrong! GRRS. We were like walking zombies the next day! HAHAS

15 Jan Monday
Still craving for shopping. Went down to Vivo city after school; alone AGAIN! HAHAs. I feel that it's good shopping alone especially when u know which stores you're gonna head to and what you've planned to buy.. & i'm one who walked super fast! Thus; when im out with a shopping list i don't want pple to tag along as i know it will be super tiring for them. hahas! Serious. Forever21 & Zara rocks rocks rocks (: Bought a punk top frm Forever21 & im really loving it alot! My best loot from the shopping spree (:

Craving for Chevrons. Thus i dated the west side sisters to Chevrons! There were me, jingmin, yongling & zen! It was a good time k-ing & laughing away (: I want more of singing sessions! Loves (: Reached home super late again!

16 Jan Tuesday
Went for the 1st PM in 2007 at old church! It was another impactful pm. I just love pm so much! The presence of the Lord was really strong as we kneeled down & sang "Hallowed be Your name". (: & YEASS We had our all-time fav BAN MIAN at the kopitiam opp church! I really love it alot!!!!!=D

Marcus wanted to talk to yongling so me, evans,jm & zen waited for them at the bus stop till 12 plus. Throughout the few hrs, we really shared alot with each other. Zen,jm,yl,evans & me took bus 99 to jm's bus stop & we continue talking all the way till 2+, 3am. I really Thank God for cg members like them who care & love for each & every members so much. Thanks for sharing the burden, thanks for assuring me that i'm not to blamed, thanks for giving so many advices. So sorry that u guys are pulled into the picture. Through this, i can really feel the closeness between us, i really feel the love.. Though there are some lil conflicts becoz of that matter, i feel that this prove that each of you have the burden for the cg members. Thank God u guys were there for me. I have so much things to say...read on later.

17 Jan Wednesday
For the past 1 week i've been reaching home after 2am.. All the late nights took effect today.. Cabbed to school at 1.30 to rehearse the FABM presentation wif the group when our turn is supposed to be at 4.45pm. I could hardly open my eyes. My eyes were puffy & swollen..I look really tired & haggard; i know i know. Thank God FABM is over! I've created a livejournal a/c last week. Was fiddling with it all the while just now.. got the hang of it (: Oh & Evans passed his driving test! =D

What happened . .
Something happened around last week.. I wouldnt say it's a BIG matter coz they've assured me that it is only a Small matter. I just wanna say that i don't wanna lose a friend becoz of this thing. You guys have been telling me that i shouldnt blame myself, i know..i know that theres no right or wrong party in this. But i cant stop myself from thinking that i'm to blamed for all these.. The feeling of losing a friend is not good at all. But ackwardness is unavoidable.. I need time to get over with this guilt feeling & ackward feeling. I'm really sorry that you guys have been pulled into the picture, so sorry to get u involved. I didnt know that this could arise to be sucha big matter with more & more people coming into picture. I'm sorry.... Don't ask me why i am apologizing..coz i also dunno how to explain.. I just know that i feel really bad seeing you guys spending so much time sharing the burden..

I'm really tired from all these. It's causing me alot of stress.. It has come to a point where tears will just come uncontrollably; nt becoz of sadness or wat but becoz of the overwhelming stress. I really need alot of God's strength to pull me through. I'm not only physically drained but also mentally & emotionally drained. I'm not blaming anyone for this.. It's just how i am feeling right now. If you ask me what am i going to do about this; i've no answer seriously.. I'm too tired to think.. There's just too much load on my mind now.. Problems after problems. What i will do now is to do my best & believe that God will do the rest.

Give us peace. I'm really really tired & drained..very very.

(Thank God it's Thursday tml..i can rest abit)